I was an atheist before I came to Canada. As with most Chinese people, in my opinion it was very stupid to believe someone that does not exist. I believed in myself. Although my mother was a Christian, I guessed that this was because she did not know evolution – but I knew. My parents, my sisters and brothers cared about me, and this was enough for me – I felt happy without God.
But this happiness ended when my father died. I realized that someday my mother would leave me too, and I could not face this fact, so I chose to avoid it. I decided to immigrate to Canada. But just a few days after my decision, I was informed that my mother had cancer. I went to home to look after her, and after two months, it was clear that she was going to die. But I did not expect her to be so peaceful about her death. I felt that my mother had something which I was missing. At that time I began thinking about God and doubted atheism. It seems unbelievable that such a large and well-designed universe came from explosions. Because I missed my mother, I sometimes went to church, but I was still not sure whether there is really a God in the world.
Two years after my mother died, I came to Canada with my husband and my daughter. In my heart, I was still seeking something, but I was not sure what it was. I prayed to God: if this world really has a God, please show me something. One day my friend Eric told me there was a summer tent where people were speaking about God. So I decided to go there to find something. This was July 29th, 2003 when my husband and I went there by bicycle. When I went to the tent, I found the scripture For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. The scripture impacted my heart so intensely, at this moment I realized that God really exists, He had guided my life, and He had led me to come here to know what I want to discover. At the same time I realized that I am a sinner, since I refused God for such a long time, even when He had sacrificed His life for me. I did a lot of things that were against God. On that evening an evangelist named Stephen Vance spoke about the second birth, and I knew I was born again and I got my new life.
My husband James Hu also was saved on September 25th, 2003, we were baptized on December 13th, 2003. Now we really enjoy our life, living in Christ. Life has had big changes for us, but we are no longer wrong about the future – I know in the future I will still face a lot of difficulties, but compared to what we got from God, this is not a problem, because we got eternal life. We are happy because we are Christians.